Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Why Am I Here?

This is not a deep question I am asking myself it is a normal, easy question. And the answer is I have no idea! I had decided not to go back to work and stay at home to take care of myself and work on my crafting business. But after several comments from people that I will not mention, I felt bad about not "working" and gave in to working only when I am scheduled and not as a call in. But now as I set here I am wondering if it is worth it. I have worked two days already and after each time I have had to take a very long nap because it has absolutely wore me out. And now I am scheduled two days this week and I am already feeling the tired kicking in. And as I sit here all I can think about is the show I have coming up in three weeks and everything I want to be doing for it. So again I ask myself WHY AM I HERE? I should be crafting! Don't get me wrong I love to be around other adults instead of that darn cat. And I enjoy seeing all the kids at school, well at least most of them, I just feel like I am setting myself up for destruction. So for now I am at the school, posting shh, and planning my fair and that is the closest I am going to get. Did I mention I am in a computer lab where most sites are blocked and there are hardly any kids in here unless they are with another teacher? So here I sit waiting for lunch so that I can at least see my oldest pass my by without speaking. He loves me, but mom is so not cool at school! Have a good day everyone and bring on 3 O'clock!


  1. i say stay at home & don't feel bad about it! you deserve to do what you want to do! you are a very good person! life is short!

  2. Dolly, It does not matter what others thing. Caring about others opinions is a burden we need not carry. Check out Hebrews 12 where it talks about casting those things off to God and dealing with only you and your faith!

    You know what YOU can handle and it should not matter what anyone else says. You are an excellent mother and crafter(if that is the correct term :P) and that is a HUGE job within itself.

    Coming home tired and not being able to be YOU is not worth the measly paycheck the job brings. Life is not about $$ at all and I say to tell those who questioned your choices to "stuff it" and be you!

    I support you 1200% percent Dolly! :o)

  3. I don't know your entire situation, but I do know that you should do what is best for you. What other people think is just that...what they think.It's not what they know.Only you know for sure. Take care of yourself first, that is most important. Pray about it. God will show you!
    I'll be praying for you!

  4. After working outside the home since I was 15 years old, I quit my job four months ago and I can honestly say it is the best decision I could have ever made. But, if I would have been obeying God like I should have been, I would have quit a year ago. I just kept holding on because I was afraid of losing the income, afraid of what people would think if I stayed home when our money situation isn't the best, etc. and so forth. I had all the thoughts. After one miserable, long year I finally gave in and quit. It is amazing how God has provided for our family. We don't even miss the income AT ALL! Our overall family life is much happier and stronger. We are laughing and loving more because I'm not tired all the time and to wore out to play a game or take a walk. I even have my crafting time in between all the running. God is so good and faithful to take care of us when we obey His calling on our life. I hope things are better for you now!